test results

Our dear friend came last week and gave of the test results.  I had infection (chorioamnionitis) and a placenta abruption.  They are not sure which one occurred first.  I am very thankful that I had some bleeding and everything was handled in the hospital without complications to me.

It does give my husband and I peace to have answers.  Our friend and geneticist said that looking at our history she sees no reason why we cannot go on to have another healthy child.  This makes me happy because in my heart I still really, really want one more child and our children want one more, we all do. 

Life has moved forward.  It is hard to believe that it has been 4.5 weeks already.  I look at her picture most days and to some degree it still seems a little surreal.  My grandmother (that I was really close to) died a few years ago.  I like to think that ruby is with her until we can be together again.

We are going to be meeting with high risk doctors soon so we know what to expect when we conceive again.  I think they can monitor the placenta through ultrasounds and they can monitor closely for any signs of infection.  It will be anxiety provoking but  the end result is very worth it.  Having children has brought me the greatest joys of my life.  It is the hardest, best job ever. :)


"You take the bad with the good, Rise up through it. Live in the mist of it. It's the bad that lets you know ho good the good really is. Don't let the bad leave you thinking like there ain't any good. There is, and lots of it, too. "
— Charles Martin (Chasing Fireflies)

Testing

This has been a pretty good week.  I was surprised to hear back from Ellen, our friend, and the geneticist.  We have known her for years, since I was a child.  She is bringing the results with dinner tonite.  She is so nice that she is also bringing dinner. 

I am anxious to get the results.  I'm not sure shy.  I did not expect to feel anxious it just happened.  The only thing that would be bad is if the results meant we could have no more children and I do not think that will happen.  I do not think they even tested for anything that would prevent me from having children.  I am just really curious if she even has answers now.  It would be great to know why Ruby Claire did not make it.   We will see tonight.

Other than that life is moving forward.  We have been doing school, playing outside, walking.  We have resumed all of our normal activities.  Have three beautiful children really keeps me going and helps me move forward. 

Two nights ago I decided it was time to start exercising.  I am trying to get this 10 lbs off and it is not budging.  That is hard because after all my pregnancies I have lost the weight quickly.  of course, it has only been 3.5 weeks.  So it will come.  It is just frustrating.  None of my normal pants fit good which is hard for me because before this pregnancy I was as small as I was when I got married and I want to get back there.  It is very hard to lose it with no nursing baby. :)



I am very lucky to be surrounded by so many wonderful people.  They love me so much and that is more than many people have.  So for today I am just going to be thankful for all the people in my life while awaiting results. :)