Today

Today has been what I would call, "one of those days."  I woke up and it was raining and maybe that correlated with my mood.  Either way I just felt annoyed right off the bat because the recycling had not been taken and it is overflowing, the floors had to be vacuumed because of dog hair (my husband is supposed to help), and today really starts back to the real world.

Everything has been okay.  I have been at home in my comfortable, warm surroundings not really having to face the real world because we had a child with a fever until Monday.  Today we have speech and tomorrow we have coop and we are back to the real world.

It is not that people are rude or anything.  It is just the reality that Ruby Claire is gone.  People will ask about it and I so appreciate their concern and everything they have done.  The pain is just still so new and so fresh.  It is just sad.  Like , today at speech I was talking to the therapist (we have known her for a long time) and I started crying.  She had tears.   It is just hard and sad and I know tomorrow will be the same and then we can start moving forward. :)

It is just a sad day for me today, I guess.  I cried at speech.  I cried on my mother-in-laws shoulders...  I guess it is just an emotional day. :)  I just do not like to be all emotional in front of other people and the kids because I know it is upsetting but sometimes it cannot be helped. :)

Tomorrow is a new day and things are already looking up.  I am so thankful for my family and friends throughout this time and always.